they lights up your day just like *snap* that!
was in medicine ward for 3 weeks, there is a ward change every week, and at the end of the week, we will nid to pass up one case write ups for submission and evaluation to be included in parts of our sessional exams..
so evy week we will be quite keen to clerk a good case for case write ups and will be busy flipping the medical records of the patient and try to find out what the patients is suffering from, ideally we should done with a patient per day as we spend around one hour with them, but overtime i find myself mostly carried away by patients and end up talking to them like a fren instead of doing my case writing and examinations. LOL
but this particularly week,i try to clerk a case without a notepad just to test myself so that i can remember all the details without noting down and clerk a good history just by talking to patient. So this week i got a patient of pulmonary tuberculosis, and the x ray findings are very much positive, cavitations at the left upper lobe, and infiltrations over the lungs. quite a good case for a record, and the patient is at her 30s, cooperative, understandings, keen to know more about her disease.
Upon enquiry, just to find out there is a matching history of tuberculosis, even though we cant get the sputum sample, but the history + examinations are all pointing to tuberculosis, so i explain to the patient a little bit about the disease and try to know more about her, just like a friend, and the bonding are made. Then on the last day in the C4 ward( female medicine ward), she said to me: doktor ah yin( LOL at the nickname she gave) me: akak, jgn panggil saya doktor, segan la, saya hanya pelajar sahaja :) then she said: tak tak, kalau orang lain tak panggil tak apa, tapi saya panggil sebab setiap pagi saya tengok awak, saya rasa doktor saya dah sampai, banyak yang saya tak tahu tanya awak.. belajar lah baik baik, dua tahun lagi, saya datang saya tengok awak lagi ya.. and then she giggles..
at that moments, the mixed feelings of guilt, incompetence and happiness creeps up, i know i m stil much unfit for a doctor, or much more accurately, unfit for a medical students, I am stil struggling alot of things that i m not sure, i dun know and i am just too ignorant to open up textbook, be a good girl and read. But at the same time, i remind myself, be kind and be honest. I am glad that i managed a good communication although i didnt do anything in specific, perhaps some care and attention to them, which i think it's well within my ability. In the end, what gives us the most satisfaction is when, we carved a smile over their tired face..
So, when i come back to her bed aft my lecture class at the other bed, she isnt there, and so i left a note to cite my appreciation for these few days, i feel that i have learned alot from her apart from making her as my study subject but i mean the other perspective of life, i might not be capable of becoming the most knowledgeable, but i wanted to be attentive. Well, there is still a long way to go for me to reach that state. For now, all i observe on houseman is busy busy n busy writing all the patient reports, and then report to MO, and then report to specialist, and then kena scold or looks like blur blur.. will go thru the stage soon enough *oh NOOOO!!*
Nevertheless, at this stage, the analogue is spongebob, flexible and absorbable :) oh ya and adorable lols
Back home for 2 days because of melaka historical day on monday, *yay* ONLY in melaka, haha
had some really nice time with family <3
happy times :))
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