Insight

在2011年的最后一天, 我的脑袋似乎很空白
庸庸碌碌了一年
有欢笑, 有失望, 有难过,有着急, 有满足
这一天
像是象征着结帐的最后一天, 我却一时之间
忘了
我今年所达成的, 所无法完成的, 所在乎的
是否
这一切就将烟消云散, 失去了存在的意义呢?
也许, 只是一个很纯粹的,老化的象征,我想

ok, i m done with emo emo thingy, haha, back to usual self, hmmph, i m super reluctant to succumb to the power of aging, and so, i m gonna do a little review of my 2011..

yea, 2011, is seriously one of a year in my peak of life, still being in fresh 20s, fearless, have done some couple of cool stuff and some not so cool stuff.

2011 is my last year in india, extremely sad to thk about leaving, a place like second home for these two years, i have been back home once during cny on 2010, haven step on the Malay land for this bloody whole year, if you ever asked me AGAIN, on homesick issue? well, this phrase no longer exist in my mind, i talk to families vy frequently and i know wat they are up to almost evyday, but i m LIVING here, the Manipal life.

i went to market, i talk to shopkeepers, i make friend with them and they are like part of my life, though soon they will be some passerby of my life but still, i dun thk i will ever forget them.. all these adorable aunties and uncles! We always have a lot of requests, some silly's but playing around with them are really FUN!

academically, i dont thk i have give my all out, but i certainly have tried, just that sometimes, many things are up and they just happens to be the excuse of not studying well, of less time, of no mood, and all sorta stuff.. but i m just glad and satisfy that i passed, always content with what you achieved but anticipate more on what you can achieve. Life should be full of hope, isnt' it?

i finish up to here yesterday, and then my fren came
we talk A LOT, eat A LOT and laugh A LOT
so the post stop here yesterday because i m too tired to continue aft they came and today i have forgot what i want to say..

side effect of growing older each year? my vote definitely to decrease memor power! :S

lols, so where should i start again yea?
as of non academically, something like TRAVEL, i thk i have achieved quite something last year, been to erm 9 countries? 10 if india is inclusive :)
been to Kerala& Kashmir(India) and Sri Lanka, really do enjoy the trip, as it was all planned by me and kai lin, Kerala was undoubtedly one of my fav place in india, some bonding made during travel, and it is a bad prognosis of travel withdrawal, u will always miss those lovely people u met! well, kashmir is a beauty just like their descriptive travel slogan "heaven on earth". Just that this beauty is now in the middle of two power. and its heavily loaded with military unit as of now, so not suggested for sole traveller.
Then Sri Lanka, is a trip with my mom and her fren, this trip is pretty comfortable as we have a seven seater private coach and driver just for the four of us. and the beach here is one of the prettiest beach i have ever seen with my eyes. :D fit in just nice for the definition of 'clean&clear'.

later this year, during my second holiday, and i m in europe!! meeting my besties in UK, was the thing dat carry me through my super bitchy finals.. hahaa, and then i joined a 16 day trip from UK to all over europe, this trip was pretty good, a combination of tour and backpack, we got the chance to explore by ourselves and we got the things pretty clear and well informed by our tour guide. and this trip do keep our explore in europe well in budget. but the only drawback is that you wont get yr free time as of your wish . which is something that i have been accustomed to. and indirectly means less time for photos. hmmph but i do enjoy the trip though, with accompany of people all over the world. make friends, with people from columbia, UK, south africa, Philipines, Australians and even Malaysians! too bad we nid to be apart at the peak of our friendship :(

and also something like COOKING, it comes naturally nowadays that i cook almost evyday, improve knife skills and chopping skills since my college time, i pick up cooking only during that time as kitchen is a prohibited area for me ( because i have no idea how to on the stove wth o.O thking bac oso i feel absurd). Tho my cooking is not particulary nice but eatable la, at least i make myself gain ALOT of weight lols. and with that oven in my house, we started some couple of new dishes with that, so cooking is kinda fun, just like my hobby nowadays. and one thing i wanna bragged about leh is my chicken cutting skills, i have never touch a raw chicken up to secondary school and now i chop them like nobody's business ;) not intended to be a housewife in the future but, i m living that kind of life OH WHYYYY?? growing up? SIGH!

as for FRIENDSHIP, I have always that limited group of people that i hang out with but they are my dear ones, we know each other and always there for each other, limited social circles but i would say friendship are not measured in quantity but in quality, or better still, I never try to measure friendship, people come and people go, only those care will stay. and a big thank you to all my friends that care for me so much and even though i dont expressed it, but i feel, loved by u guys :')

but this year, i hope, i will meet with less circumstances where i find myself in a stream dilemma of not trying to hurt ppl and doing thing as my wish. I feel really bad after that.

RELATIONSHIP? sorry i have nth to elaborate here :P BLANK haha my parents are started to discuss this with me but ahhh, as usual, they FAILED. my philosophy is: when it comes, it comes. what if it never come? then what, you force it to come? NO rht, i will believe that fate has a better plan for me :)

So, i thk i have LIVED 2011 quite well, but there is still some room of improvement here and there, some lessons learned and history shouldnt be repeated in the future. I have learned to live the moment and treasure life more, time and tide wait for no one.

time for new year resolutions?
nth much, be a BETTER person? define better? i dont know, just try to improve day by day. little at a time but i'd like to make sure, I LIVED 2012 better than 2011 :) Thanks God,my family, my friend and thanks to evyone who are patient enough to read this lengthy post.

p/s: lets put our finger crossed for a better 2012! :D